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8月29日

Blackflies

 Well would you look at that, summer holiday's almost over and school starts on Friday. It's unbelievable, it seems that summer has come and pass without much notice. I don't wanna go back to school, now to the dreadful school I go to,lol. Before I hoped that I could return to "home", Canada this summer because one of the pastors in our church was moving to Canada and we asked him to help us look for a legal guardian for me there so that I get to go back there. (my parents can't go back yet and they told me if I have to go back I need someone to look after me since I am still a "minor" and we can't find anyone whom we can' trust well enough to place me into their care (their net of relations are very weak)) But it turns out to be false hope, just like every summer where something like this happens. But this time it's understandable, he just got there and hasn't even settle down with his own place so how is he suppose to help me yet. Last week, I got homesicken again and had a minor breakdown when I thought of all this. I've been away from my "home" for 4 years, 5 to come. I'm turning 16 soon...I spent half of my teenage away in places that I did not want to be. I feel to be in sorrow whenever I think about the fact how the supposed years of most fun in both childhood and teenage have been wasted away in my life and never got to experience as much as others do. Such as dating (never had a date), sleepovers (only had one sleepover in my life and that was recently), or anything of that sort. I feel regretful.
 
 Last week, I downloaded a song called "The Blackflies Song", which is a Canadian folk song, one I've heard all the time on this animation clip on TV back when i was a kid. The first few times i listened to it, I was happy that I finally get to listen to this again. But eventually on the very same day, that night before I went to sleep, I began to realize how much I miss home and got homesicken by the flow of memories in my head. All this frustrates me and just pisses me off...
 
 However, on Sunday (Aug 27), there was a change. Originally me, my mom and Stephanie were going to go to MongKok (a very crowded and mixed-up district in HK, where you can have lots of malls and at the same time lots of shops selling illegal stuff, where you can have hotels and at the same time lots of prostitutes, where you can have lots of people and at the same time triads) to let me mom do some shopping and to buy my textbooks for next year.
 
 By the way, in HK we have to buy our own textbooks. It's not like the way it is back in Canada where the government and the education boards buys and lends us the textbooks for the year and by the end of it we have to return it in good conditions and if there's scratches or scribblings in it, then we pay. They say it's a public school but you still have to spend money on pathetic things such as textbooks, damn uniforms, electricity bills, etc. Back in Canada, we didn't even had to pay a damn cent, except for field trips. For this reason, we go to MongKok to buy second-hand books because first-hands are not worth it. Why pay for something full-price when you're only gonna use for one year and then throw it away afterwards (some of the stuff they teach aren't worth keeping, such as some classes teach us a lot of stuff about HK when we don't wanna do anything with HK). We got a few books, not all. Because some of the bookstores say that we have to get the new edition (damn publishers, reediting shit and then print it back out, forcing people to buy) and that there's no second-hands for those. But there's no need to rush since I can go to school for the first couple of weeks without my books and borrow others. That way I will be able to know exactly what's going on.
 
 Back to where I was saying, we went to MongKok, bought the books and all sorts of other stuff and we went by this street that sales shoes. Me and my mom talked about buying a new good pair of shoes for me before and now we did. But the problem was the shoes I like, want and picked were completely different from her point of view. Since she is the one paying, she does have a say on this. So the ones i picked, she doesn't like and the ones she suggested, I don't like either. Eventually after all this, we both kinda lost our mood. But nonetheless, in the end, I picked out something that she was okay with and I evenly liked (just "average like", not that much). It was an Adidas that's blue and white with grey and black linings. It looked simple but nonetheless, it was the best, most expensive, branded (Adidas, Nike, etc) shoe I've ever had. I think it costed $400 HKD/$67 CAD/$50 USD! You'll find pictures of it below.
 
 Oh but, I can't wear it to school though. One, because wearing it to school would only ruin it. Two, it's blue right? Well part of our school's ridiculous, outrageous, bullshit rules is that we cannot wear any shoes other than ones that are black and/or white. Bullshit right? There are others as well, such as no socks shorter than 2 inches from the ankle, no hair-dying (not that I dye my hair anyways), no jewellery or piercings other than simple earrings for girls. All of this is bullshit! More the reason why I hate schools in HK and why I wanna go back to Canada for REAL high school and have a taste of that and the high school life before it's too late and it's over...
 
 One more thing, on the 27th as well, my stepdad gave me $500 HKD! Unbelievable! While we were in MongKok, my stepdad and Nathan were at the HKCEC (Hong Kong Convention and Exibitation Centre) in WanChai and there was this computer/electronics workshop/display sales sorta thing. And he said that it was neat and the stuff there were rather cheap and that maybe I would like to go. So he gave me $1000HKD for me to help him buy an SD card while I was there and that I can keep $500 after I changed it. He says that that would be back-to-school money for me or to buy whatever I want where I'm at there! Awesome eh? That was one of the nicest thing he has ever done to me. (just give out lots of money to me is considered to be big for me...) Yesterday (28th), I bought him the SD card like so and I spent $300 HKD/$50 CAD/$37.5 USD and bought myself a Norton Internet Security with the standard Norton stuff (Antivirus) and it came with some $50HKD supermarket coupon which I exchanged it with my mom later on back to cash. Nice eh?
 
 So I guess in every cloud, there is indeed a silver lining. And that when God does closes the door, he does leave a window open. A stroke of hope and light among the dark situation, that's just how it is. Just gotta hold on...Oh well, all the best and God bless! Amen.
 
P.S.: Before I end this entry, let me post the lyrics of the chorus in this "Blackfly Song" I speak of:
 
Blackflies, the little blackflies
Always the blackflies no matter where you go
I'll die with the blackflies a-pickin my bones
In north Ontar-i-o, i-o
In north Ontar-i-o
 
8月24日

Double Shot...entry out of randoness

There's nothing much in this entry. Just typing it out of randoness. So last week i had a medical checkup (school booked us these appointments for it because...I'm a new student or something) and it turns out that I had two needle shots missing from my immunization records and that I have minor colour-blindness. THe most shittiest part of the checkup was where i had this middle-aged female doctor asking me to remove my pants to check my gentials......Anyways, they told me to go back today for my shots and for a further eye examination. I had two needles missing from my immunization records. One which I was suppose to have when I was 12 but it was right before then that I left Canada  and didn't manage to have it while I was away and couldn't get a good medical checkup. One which was this whatever needle that HK requires us to have especially (not part of my Canadian immunization). So today I had to take two shots, one on each shoulder. Imagine that, silly eh, two bandages on each shoulder. You don't need to imagine, i'll post up the pics of me later. As for the eye examination, it was stupid. Waste of time and money, all they did was checked my eyes and told me that my eyes are okay and that I had minor colour-blindness, but I had already known all this stuff all along. So much for all that.
 
P.S.: Yes, I'm shirtless in the pics, so what? no dirty thoughts,lol.
8月23日

Nathan's Birthday (Detailed Entry)

So the 20th was my brother, Nathan's, 8th birthday. I know I'm 3 days late but for the last 3 days I didn't really had the chance to type down all the details. Anyways, here goes. First of all, on that day I woke up in a bad mood, pissed at many things, how a friend ignored me, and in particular how my parents made me go to sleep earlier and not stay up. I mean for crying out loud, I'm on summer holiday and it's almost over and I didn't get all of my things sorted out so I wanted to spend more time with it. Just cause they're tired from work and such, doesn't mean I am. If I'm tired, I'll know I need to rest. I don't need them to tell me how much rest I need. I hate it when adults always look down on us and thing we know no better and that they're always right. That makes them no better than us. So I ended up being in a terrible start of the day. Didn't do much in the morning, other than writting letters to certain people (felt like writting when I was down there), going to church, etc.
 
Enough with the rant, back to the birthday topic. My stepdad took the kids to Toy'R'Us and got my brother a toy gun-rifle sorta thing. I already bought Nathan this Batman-motorcycle toy a few days ago at a very good price at a supermarket. But it turns out that you can't take the Batman out of his motorcycle *cough*rip-off*cough*. My mom got some cards sorta thing. Overall, Nathan seem to quite enjoy it all, it did went quite well. I also made him a birthday card (i used to always make handmade cards for birthdays, using origami to fold something niffty and put it at the front) which was this 8-pointed star thing. But to make that, I had to use 8 different pieces of papar, fold it, then stick it together. I used 8 different colours (red, orange, yellow, green, blue, black, white, pink) to fold the 8 different points of the star. Once i got it altogether, I stick the whole thing onto a special white piece of paper and put the message inside. I used a multi-colour 8-pointed star to represent life bing being more colourful and enlightening as we grow and 8 refering to the age. I think it was good and my mom said it was wonderful...EXCEPT she didn't like how one of the points was black. She says that black isn't good for birthdays and that i should replace it. Of course, i found it simply ridiculous. BUt in the end, she just ripped that part out and then I threw the origami book on the table and told her that if she wants to replace it with something else, then she should fold it herself. Obviously up to there I was definitely pissed cause i spent all the effort and time to make that and she just had to ruin everything because of some stupid asian chinese supersition that black isn't good for birthdays. it's like taking a masterpiece painting and adding an extra stroke to it for no reason other than to make it look bad. That's how i felt. I had to use black because, one, black would make the colourful rainbow effect better, better ascortment of colours. Two, those 8 colours are the only 8 colours i have in my set of construction paper.  IN the end, my mom folded a crappy untidy point using a random piece of yellow paper. Good thing I took a picture of the card before it was "ruinned". Somehow back there, I had a feeling that I won't be seeing the card in the same way I did it and simply took a picture of it. It's posted right below.
 
As for other pictures of birthday such as cake, etc, i've already posted it in the photo albums. Take a look there in the "Family" album. Well that's all for now. See ya.
8月20日

Nathan's Birthday

Today is my brother, Nathan's, 8th birthday! Quite a bit of things happened today. I gave him a Batman-motorcycle thing toy as a present. And I made this card with an 8-pointed star origami (most of my cards have origamis as the cover) with 8 different colours for each point. To represent life being more colourful and enlightening as we grow and now he's now 8 years old. I can't go into details now cause I have to go. I'm just gonna type all the main details here and end now. I'll give out the further details later once I have time. Plus I have a few pictures, maybe I'll upload them as well. See ya!
8月7日

Everything Around Me seems to be Falling Apart

Right now i feel like shit! Why? Cause it seems to me that everything around me is falling apart. How? Well to start with, one of my closest friend in real life right now just gave me shit for whatever reason and temporary blocked me! He said that I was annoying him in a certain way and pissed him off. Still even if I did something wrong, he should have at least let it go and relax. Cause if he gets all pissy with me for just that, then there would have been several of situations in the past where I would have done the same nasty things he just did if he was me.
 Also a really good and close friend of mine whom i care a lot and really important, nearly killed himself today by massive dose of medicine. Luckily he was saved and didn't die or else i wouldn't know what to do...just spoke with him. It's fine now.
 Another long time friend of mine has been acting like an asshole for the last few months and did things and speak hurtful things to me and another friend of ours. I can't believe this is all happening. It's like a few weeks ago, i had problems with my family and my friends were what backed me up and made me feel good. Now it's friends that are making me feel bad and yet my family seems to be stable...ugh! Just hope everything'll be clear in time, just simply breathe...
 
P.S.: This new Windows Live verison of MSN Space SUCKS! damn, what the hell is with this Windows Live shit...