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March 31 BittersweetnessNOTE: I highlighted all the main points so that you'll have an easier time to read this, since I know my blog entries are always long and people sometimes get sick of reading that long of a stuff, so yeah. and just a note, the underlined ones are more important than the bolded ones, lol. Geez, it's been a while since I've blogged. But that's only because so much has been happening that it took me all this time to finally post it all out. In fact, I don't even know where to start...well for starters, I know it's been more than a week already, but...just wanna say HAPPY EASTER! hope you guys had a meaningful and worthy Easter. for me, i deliberately took Easter Sunday off (mind you, I only work on Sundays, not working for one day cost quite a lot in terms of the salary I get by the end of the month; and yes, the boss was even asking me if I could work on Easter) just so that I could make it to church since it's been 3 months since I've been to church thanks to my job. But unfortunately...I stayed up late on Saturday and on Sunday morning, I did attended the service except I was a bit sleepy and wasn't fully paying attention...and I am ashamed of that... :-( Now, moving on the main topic that I wanted to talk about. I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned this but before I go on talking about anything else, I ought to explain something. if you know about this already, then move on to the next paragraph. so before I go on, i need to tell you that about 2 weeks ago, it was actually my last week of school for this school year! yep, that's right, kinda weird, you might be thinking. well you see, for the HK education system, in my year (Secondary 5...which is the equvialent to Grade 11 back at "home) we have these biggie public exams called the HKCEEs (Hong Kong Certificate of Education Examinations, which for the local people here are like the life-or-death exams because everything for your future basically depends on it cause they are the basic requirements for a decent job, unless you wanna have a blue-collar job) and they take place during the months of April and May. Even though I'm leaving here soon and I don't really give a damn about those exams, i'll just try a couple just to see how good i am and besides, we already paid for them already (yes, the students have to pay for them...and we had to pay them cause the school was fussing with us when we went re-registered and heard that I didn't give much thought about them). And since they're so almighty significant, everyone during this grade has school off early so that we can study and write those exams. So we have our final exams of the school year during the middle of March, and they're entirely based on the HKCEEs, which btw did I mention that they're based on everything you've learnt for the last 2 years...yes, that's why I despise them since i think it's not fair that you get examinated so much, how unreasonably hard they are, how much they fuss over it (at the same time, I feel sorry for the local students since they're under so much pressure and the path to success is such a narrow one and there are always a couple of unfortunate ones who couldn't make it). So despite how much I hated them, i still had to briefly study for them for the sake of my final exams of the school year since those are important and would appear on my report card, which I'd definitely need for transfer. Then school is over by the end of March and for students here, it's the end of "basic" secondary school (since you still have Secondary 6 and 7...if you manage to pass the HKCEEs and get to move on, lol; the basic requirements for a decent job would be for you to at least graduate Secondary 5). So this blog entry is actually mainly about my so-called "graduation" (i'm gonna continue high school once i get back to Canada anyways...and as 11th grader...since I don't want to return just for the last year, having to readopt to things and just when I get used to things, leave...so I would volunteerly drop a grade if I am allowed to) 2 weeks ago and everything that happened. First of all, about the graduation party and the events on the last day of school. The graduation party was held a couple of days before the last day of school because there were a number of people who had to fly during the week school was gonna be over, as well as the weeks after (some of them had to fly back to their home countries, such as my dear Filipino friends, to get ready for college since in their system, college starts after what we called Grade 10, and instead of having long vacation during the summer, they have theirs between March and June, so they have to get back to school by June). It was quite annoying to arrange a date for the party since everyone had a different opinion and we had to try to satisify everyone's demands and needs. In fact, most of the party and the events on the last day of school were pretty simple, we didn't really get to do much actually. During the party, there was nothing but wildish dancing and drinks. For the last day of school, we only signed each other's uniform and on these cards that were included when we got our class photo and graduation photo of all classes in our year, and that was it before the school was kicking us out of the school since everyone else still has classes and we were causing a disturbance. I wasn't too impressed. Part of the problem was because of poor plannings and bad organization since we didn't made anything until the month before the last month of school. And the other part, the one which lead to the one mentioned just now, was because the thing about us is that a lot of people want changes to happen and things to change for the better, but they don't do anything about it or make it happen, like as if they're expecting something to fall from the sky to procide them with the solution. So there were only a few of us who really actually do something to prepare for these events (which like I said before, we didn't take any real actions until the last month came...so that was bad as well) and yet there were a few people who were complaining and bitching to us about crap like how we should have organized our party at the different place or on a different date...well hello, why didn't you help us do something about it or say something earlier? we've been doing all we could to satisify your needs and demands...this is the part where I've learn that there's only so much we can try to do to satisify as much to everyone, but it is impossible to satisify everything and everyone's needs and demands the way everyone wants it to be...number 1 rule in leadership and on representation on a body of people, do as much as you can, help out as much as you can, but don't expect everyone would be happy afterwards, that's humanity for you. in fact, some people didn't come to the graduation party despite how it might be the last time we might have a party together, so I was a bit ticked, lol. But otherwise, it was all good actually. Despite how ordinary, simple, how there wasn't much happening to even talk about, and all this shit that I'm spilling just for that one paragraph, I'd say that I still had a good time and still enjoyed it for what it was. I mean c'mon, like I said, it was our last week, how could you not appreicate it for what it is? On the day of the graduation party, I just wore my white button-up shirt with a thin black tie, black pants, my favourite black long coat that I also talked about before, and of course, my new shoes. I went semi-formal and didn't wore a tux/suit because i'm just the type of person who's not willing to go formal if i've got a choice. I quite liked what I was wearing, was trying to attempt to be punkish, it made me looked like I was attempting to be dead-beat office man, some sort of detective, lol. There was quite a bit of drinking which was kinda funny since when we booked the place and the manager knew most of us were still below 18 (such as myself, for a friendly reminder to everyone, :-P lol) and made it quite clear that he didn't want those of us who were underage to drink, almost all of us went to the bar section and started grabbing something (after the teachers left...), lol. I even broke my own rule of no drinking (i don't like drinking alcohol for a number of reasons mainly because it makes people do stupid and often regrettable things, it usually taste pretty awful, and you're paying for a heavier price than your usual drinks just to do that) on that day because afterall, it was gonna be our last party together, so what the heck, lol. Had about three cups and a shot of something. *shrugs* didn't feel tipsy or drunk though...though I admit it, i sorta wanted to get that feeling on that day and lose control just once. I didn't go home and stayed out that night (already told my parents that I wasn't gonna) even after the party was over (12:30 am) cause I wanted to us to be together as long as we could since it was the last time we could go out together that late at night. But geez, by the next morning, I was all pale, zombie-like, felt like crap since I didn't sleep at all, and fell asleep throughout most of the day at school (yes, I still went to school the next day, that's how crazy i was, lol). Now for some quick pics of that day: For the last day of school, like I said, we weren't able to do much. There was an assembly for our farewell, but it was also shared with the awards presentations for other students. And like i said before, due to how poorly organized we were, none of us from our year prepared any performances like we would usually do on every special ocassion or like the graduates from last year, except for this short dance performance from B class...like what was wrong with us, lol...and we didn't even cause enough destruction to blow up the school! *snickers and rubs hands together* After the assembly was over, we were allowed to stay for a while to sign each other's uniform and such, and then the staff kept on kicking us out for the school cause we were being troublesome and causing a disturbance to the other classes, (which I thought wasn't enough since I wanted to cause as much trouble as we could for all the shit this school has given to us) and all we did was just standing around, signing and taking pics...and a bit of shouting once in a while and that was it. Probably cause we weren't able to do much even on the last day, had enough time to cherish the moment and everyone was so busy with the signing and pictures to do anything else, I didn't get as much of that sad touchy feeling as much as I thought I would. Not that I'm saying that I didn't like all that has happened nor that I don't care about it all, cause I do and I know I'll definitely miss everyone so much because I don't know when I'll be seeing some of these people again and don't know when we'll be able to all get together as a big group of friends and have fun. Cause mind you, some of us are leaving HK afterwards (such as myself) and even if we didn't, it's sometimes quite hard to reach some of them and ask them to come out...for the same reason as I've mentioned when I spilled my shit in the third paragraph. It's just that the only thing I was disappointed was that we couldn't so as much, which in turn, made the moment and everything else less meaningful. And again, some pics of that day: Now for the most important paragraph throughout this blog entry that I would want my friends from my school and here in HK to read. Overall, it's a bittersweet feeling. Sweet that I could finally get to get out of this stupid school and finally move on to whatever lies ahead, and for the first time, I do wanna move on! But then it's bitter to know that this is finally it and despite how much shit I've mentioned, how much my friends and everyone else here have hurt me so much sometimes, I know I'll definitely miss you all so much, and to know that some of us we might not ever see again. I must say, when I first came to this school, I hated it...and in fact, I still do, lol! But that's not the school's fault, it's just that it's how the education system in HK works. However, the one thing I like about this school are the people in it, they are amazing. When I first came to this school, part of my concern was that how was I gonna get along and fit in with all these people of different cultures and ethnicities (cause mind you, even though our school is a public one, it's a completely english one and mostly for students who are like me, don't know Chinese and are usually more easy-going for us). But as we can see now, that wasn't a problem cause I've made tons of friends and have gotten along with most of everyone and it's been great. I've got the opportunity to meet all these people, made some of the best friends of my life and had quite an incredible time. Come to think of it, I wouldn't want to be in any other English public school in HK but this one because I would have hated other schools anyways with my dislike about the system, except it would have been worse because it would mean that the one thing I liked about Sir Ellis Kadoorie Secondary School would have been taken again, and that was the people in it, and I would have been stuck with the local Chinese people, which are less fun and harder to get along with, as much as I hate to say it. Which is rather funny cause even though I'm ethnically Chinese, I am a Canadian and our cultures are different. In fact, about three-quarters of my friends here are Filipino (whose cultures are most similiar to mine and I get along with them just fine, and I must say I think they're one of the happiest people in the world sometimes, lol) even though we also have a portion of local Chinese students (and I'm not trying to be racist, btw; i'm just saying...). So as you can see, I am grateful that I came to this school during my time in HK. And I just wanna say, thank you to all these people who has made my time here so enjoyable. I'LL FRIGGIN' MISS YOU ALL and I LOVE YOU! :-) If you wanna look at the rest of the pics from the graduation party or the last day of school, go to my facebook or my MSN Space (my default blog) at http://spaces.msn.com/megastorm88 and click on the album "EK Graduation" under the Photo section and there you have it.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. - "Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day |
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