Wow, it's been a while since I've made an entry on my blogs. Well that's to blame for the semester exams which I have just finished yesterday. And to be honest with you, I think i did terrible. I think for each exam I did, except English (which was the last thing I had to worry about, it was not a problem at all), I only got a 50:50 chance of passing. Seriously I think I'm falling behind in school. My grades are dropping, my conduct record has been a diaster this year (9 times late...) and I don't think I'll even make it to the top 3 of anything this year. Some much for the reputation. Well those are the down stuff, on the up side, thanks to the examination period, our school days were only for half day and then I had Monday and today (Friday) off. And I also found out that I got 56.5% in Chemistry and I'm satisified about that cause Chemistry is my weakest in the Sciences subjects and I didn't even know what was going on in the last few chapters and yet I still pass (40% - passing mark) and pass my exceptations (50%), so yeah. And I also got 5-6 out of 10 in our French Oral Exam even though i was panicking and I thought I was definitely gonna fail for sure. Oh well, now that that's over, let's move on...(and prepare to move on to the second semester as well)

 

 Downs, lots of stress, my friend's dad and grandfather died in less than a month's time, and experiencing problems with my friends. Been having my breakdowns again and the saddest thing and sometimes they were caused by the coldness of one particular friend. And then when I have my breakdowns, it seems like none of my other good friends come to aid me when all my bad feelings surfaced onto my face. And then when I do try to talk it out with another particular friend, he says I expect too much...Fine, I just came to conclude that humans can be very disappointing and unrelyable when you needed them the most.

 

 But in the end, it seems like the bad things usually come right in the end. Cause by the end of the month, it seems like most of the Down things had been converted to Up things. The easiest example, my semester exams are finished and now I can take a break...hopefully. And that I at least passed in a bit. About the deaths of my friend's father and grandfather, I'm very grateful and glad that he told me all of this and was willing to share this with me. I think I'm an observer and I make pretty decent anaylse on things and I'm always willing to help and do what I can, and I also wanted to be a psychologist. But still, i kinda feel hurt when lots of people don't open up or refuse to let me help them when I'm just trying to do what I can for them. But this was one of the first time that someone had revealed to me since a big impact on their lives, and it also meant a lot to me. I did what I can and tried to talk it out and help him feel better and give out advices. In the end, he told me that I was a really good friend and that he appreicated my advice a lot and that he has never found a friend like me before. So that made my day and I whole-heartedly pray that his family would be alright after meeting such a crisis.

 As for other problem about being upset at people and all. Well not too long after all that crap happened, I just so happened to meet my old internet friend, Scott, whom I haven't spoken to for half a year. Don't freak out when you hear this but Scott is actually a teacher who lives in Alabama and is around 34. But nonetheless, I would say he's one of the best internet friends I've ever had and he's not one of those perverted freaks, that's for sure (it's been two years, and I trust him), and he's the best person to talk to when you have problems because he's so understanding and offer wonderful advices and wouldn't never say hurtful things in response. So I was glad to see him on and I spoke to himn about all these things that had been happening. (Warning: the following contains some religious stuff and may be sappy) And as I spoke about how my relations with people are starting to fade, I also got into saying how that's also the same with my relation with God as well. Whenever I used to face problems, I would be able to look up to God and still know that I am loved and someone is still there for me even when the whole world has turned their back on you. But I don't do that any more, I'm too focused on people. And the part that stuck me was when he said that God would always be there for us, and then I said that I know that but I still don't seem to be able to give back the same thing, he said "We humans can NEVER give back to God what He's given to us." and that snapped me. It made me realized that God feels the same thing I do. Even though humans can be so disappointing at times, and we get hurt by that, but still God continues to pur himself onto each and every one of us. And I think that's just simply amazing, and it gave me hope and a new light. This story may sound simple, but it meant a lot to me.

 

 Another Up event, I got a PSP now! Boo-yeah! I actually got it last week already but I just didn't talk about it until now. You see my parents have this collegue that suppose to know how to buy a PSP for an "amazing deal". And since me and my brother had always wanted one, they got us that. But for some reason, I wasn't as excited about it as I thought I would be, at first. Because at first I thought it was only for Nathan and that me and my mother would go buy mine later. I didn't expected them to suddenly come home on Friday night and suddenly give me that. It kinda reminds me of the incident with my laptop last year. I don't like it when they automatically go ahead and do what I wanted to do. And I don't like to not be a part of the picking and choosing of what I want. (but then again, PSP's are all the same whereas laptops aren't) I just don't like how I'm not in control of what supposed to be what i want. But all that doesn't mean I'm not grateful. As a matter of fact, I'm very grateful and such that they would actually get me the PSP. There's nothing wrong with anything except myself, it was all in my head. If it was somebody else, they would be thrilled surprised. But it was just that incident last year that gave me a negative effect. And I think my parents got ripped off because they paid around $2000 HKD/$250 USD/$305 CAD for it and it came with a 2 GB memory stick, a case and a bunch of DVDs with dozens of PSP games copied onto them. You upload them onto the memory stick to play but i don't like how there's not enough room to put in music if the games are gonna be stored in the memory stick. So then, later on I personally bought a game (UMD) of my own, "Grand Theft Auto: Liberty City Stories" (love that game). But like I said before, nonetheless, I'm very happy now that I got the PSP, all these little things don't matter any more. So yeah.

 

I think that should be all now. Sorry for the long entry, but I would appreiciate it if you actually read some bits of it because they were quite meaningful.  I didn't spend an hour doing all this for nothing, you know,lol. So yeah, all the best, take care, and God bless!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! How was our New Year's celebration? I hope you all had a good time and that may things be better for all of you guys for this new year of 2007 as you cast away your troubles of the past along with the year of 2006 that has just passed.

 

 My New Year's celebration was decent. After what had happened for Christmas (if anyone even bothered), I had already said to myself that I wasn't gonna spend New Year's with my family at all after the shit I got for Christmas. Which is why I already had in mind from the start to stay over at my friend's house (Francis Dangaran, to be more specific, the guy I always talk about) for the night and I did.
 So here's what happened on New Year's Eve: I went to church in the morning and then for the afternoon, I already left home and went with my other friend's family (the Oconers) to the carnival and I had a blast. What was best about it was not the rides or the games or anything about the carnival itself, it was the fact that Mr. Oconer paid for my admission fee (which is like quite expensive) and when I wanted to pay him back he said to me that it was okay and said "I treat you like my own son". That really touched me, considering the fact that I don't have and never had a father in my life. Which is why I gave away some of my coins to them and I didn't win much at the games. But the rides were awesome.

 

For New Year's Eve Night, we didn't really did much. Me and the Dangaran family just went over to this hotel nearby and they were basically holding a celebration sorta thing at their lobby and we can participate for free and have some of their food for free as we did the countdown. Quite exciting for me since i've never done much celebration for ocassions like these for a long time. We grabbed two bottles of champagnes on our way out. I think of all the times I tried alcohol, I drank the most I've ever had that night, a whole class. It might seem nothing to you guys but for me, it's unusual. Because I personally am digusted by alcohol (the bitter taste and all, I don't find what's so enjoying about it) so drinking that much is a big deal for me. But then again champagne's lighter than most stuff, so yeah.
 After all that, everyone else eventually and gradually went to sleep. I stayed up until like 6-something or 7 in the morning and then I woke up at 11, so yeah. Although it might not seem a lot but I certainly think it was enjoyable and better spending than at home. So yeah, I hope things went alright with you guys as well. I don't think I have anything else to say at the moment, so see ya! All the best.

 

"Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne."